Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Oh god. Leefy's leaving soon?

Omg, I'm not going to have Chiam teaching me for Bio mans! Seriously, I would only flunk my exam!!! Gosh! Terrible. Not to mention his boring style of teaching and his grammar, but his teaching speed was like ten times slower than Leefy's sia.. I think Leefy could have finished covering the entire 'Transport in Plants' chapter within an hour, and he took like 3 lessons, and still we could only understand better only because Leefy's constant feeling of couldn't-stand-it and decided to summarize the main idea.

Why are all the good teachers leaving Xinmin... All rather all teachers that teach/taught us. I mean I don't mind changing my Chinese teacher, but Bad for students sia... I think I'm gonna flunk my O's...

zzz...

Anyways, the SMO results are out. I got Gold for Senior Section, and Bronze for Open Section. Basically, for Senior Section my total score is 18 + 14 = 32, which was not too bad but not as acceptable in my expectation. Last year I scored 13 + 26 = 39, which means that this year my score was dropped by 7 marks. Sadded. And so tyco-ly my Open Section got 7 marks. So...

My Senior Score + My Open Score = My Last Year's Junior Score

lolz... I sibei boliao... Ntg btr to do.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Random thoughts after a heavy rain...

I don't understand.

I always thought I could make things right. That, I now realised, was utterly wrong. Losing something and thinking I could retrieve it, I couldn't. Failing each and every single time and thinking unrealistically that there would be some point where I would succeed, my failing record persisted.

This is world, this is life, wake up!

Terrible things kept occurring. Poor test grades, unable to juggle everything well enough, fail at leading and teaching the juniors... I really shouldn't be still thinking that "happily ever after" kind of Andersen's and Grimm brother's stories are the eventualities.

If things that happened now are like tangled wires, I had no idea where to begin. How to untangle the knots in the most efficient and effective way? How? Event was going to start, and this wire must be untangled immediately. This should not be a screwed up event, and it will not.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Today went to school for scolding session, but thinking about it I think Mr Tang was right about the club's standard. At least for our department, the standard is declining. Bad news huh? Too Bad lo... This is a two way thing man. Imagine it is the case between employer and employee, then the employee will be sacked lo. Sadly it's not the real world.

Tmr's gonna be fun. Seeing sec 1s fail plan and awaiting to be scolded by Jit Hui. Unless somehow they could get through it, you know, by improvising or something.

Some brainless retard chop away the washing machine that I had waited for ten minutes. Asshole. Told me he waited for an hour, but did he waited there throughout? Bastard!!! Failure!!! Loser!!!

Friday, August 06, 2010

Arghh... Exhausted.

After all, the bicultural campfire was not too badly done, although there are still feedbacks here and there, plus the seniors have to help us throughout.

Scrolling through Facebook page, seeing so many posts criticizing on this morning's event... Too bad, almost everything screw up, except probably for the band performance, which does not require anything except maybe lighting. And even then, the lighting was terrible.

8 more months and I'll be good to go.
So long never have I seen such a pathetic screw up, and it was even more shameful to remember that this is a small event. If this event doesn't help in changing their mindsets, then we have failed.

Anyway, I'm on duty for the Bicultural Campfire later. Looking at the requirement, I was stunned, and at the same time understand why we're having one and a half hours to set up and all. 4 speakers, DVD player plus dk how many microphones. And good to note that there are only like four guys, in which two of them are sec 1s. Good luck and have fun trying to minimize screw-ups. But I'm confident it would be better than the morning's event. This is the last chance to protect the department's "international" reputation (you know, since there are people from Japan and India etc later).

Crappss -.-

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Long weekend huh?

AMC was freaking difficult. I can't do some of the questions, or rather not enough time to think about how to do. Dammit, don't think I could win the Prudence Award this year.

Don't wanna think about it now. Anyway the school took the question paper, so I couldn't check how well (or badly) I did for it.

Tomorrow's National Day Celebration. Yay, early release and no duty =D. But sadly I might have to be on duty for the bicultural campfire tomorrow evening. But who cares, the fact that week 7 will be starting from Wednesday is probably good enough to compensate it. Plus no need to plan for Wednesday's CCA session cuz sec 1s will be planning it! Gotta see how much they miss out. And I hope they don't teach wrong things.

Mr. Yap is going to Harvard in 2 weeks time to do his Masters (he's on scholarship I think). Pro sia... Looks like he own every teacher in the school, being able to study in UCL and Harvard. Even Kevin Cheng is only studying in NUS. -Random-

I super zhadao having to encounter 2 different people crying for different reason in one day. Uhoh, 3rd one coming... What in the world is going on?!

Monday, August 02, 2010

I wanna learn new things. But before that, things're gonna change!!!

No crash course, but I want the sec 1s to be well prepared to be on their own in the next three years in Xinmin, assuming they could still survive right here.

Tomorrow there's ICAS, Wednesday SJPO and Thursday AMC. What the hack? Three competitions in three days? I must be crazy!!!

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Approaching week 6 just means 1 week less before stepping into the EOY fortnight, as well as my Chinese O Level in mid-November. Currently, I still haven't gone into the study mood, but I hope I'll start revising really soon because I don't want my results to be too terrible. The least I wish is to have some improvement in terms of grades and my level position.

More contents, more things to study for... Garr...

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Just woke up.

Went to school for English remedial and Physics Olympiad today. Boring life. Usual fat old man speaking, trying to make the class boring and yet expecting us to listen. Hundreds of hours of my life had gone down to drain just like that in the past three years, all thanks to the school and my freaking English grade. Well, on the other hand, Physics is the usual crash course pace. Terrible. I just hope I'll be lucky enough to get a HM.

Being told by Ms. Kuck that there will be a math competition coming up in August organised by Hwa Chong JC, and I will be representing the school together with Zu Yao and Joy. Omg terrible, I hope the competition is not on a weekday - I dun wanna skip school.

So many competitions coming up. AMC and ICAS are on this week. Didn't prepare for them. But who cares? I dun have time anyway. Whoever said that you can always find time if you want to is freaking despo trying to live in the fake world and decide not to be more scientific and realistic. 1 day has only 24 hours, and human will die. Dun talk rubbish man!

Friday, July 30, 2010

Drama Night 2010!!!

Woohoo... Success!!!

Running and perspiring since 1.30pm today. Even at the end when people were cheering, we were packing up and all. I remembered Edel saying "I pity you" while I was trying to use my only two hands to sort the equipment properly, so I was thinking after all I was more or less correct - other departments probably run and sweat less to get the equal CIP hours as we are. Wow, we are

I felt that AVA did a good job for today, although there were some minor mistakes here and there. I wasn't too sure about how obvious those mistakes were, but I hoped most of them didn't notice anything that had gone wrong. Okay, after comments contributed by people like Mr Sean Foo, Fred, Song En etc, we concluded that our efforts and stresses didn't gone down to drain just like that. At the least, during a sort-of brainstorming, I provided a funny idea which was supposed to serve as a joke, but ended up being pieced and completed by Jonathan to become a solution. We only tried out the plan today, but it served its purpose just exactly as we want it to be, so it's a successful risk after all. Yay!

Of course, I wanted to say that Damien was like going against the lights because he kept on walking to the wrong sides of the stage, which was totally different from what was planned. I just hoped they could really improve on their acting skills as well as the plot if they want a Gold Award for SYF next year. There will not be special effects dedicated to them by then, so good game.

Anyways, another event down. Finally, after one month, which somewhat seems like a year, the moving lights recorded file for this event can be sent to the Archives folder - with relieve.

Dammit I missed the AGM today. I guessed it was fun - okay, at least not so busy like us in Hall Control. I missed the photoshoot, the videos, speeches etc, but not the food of course.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

今天从《读者》2010年第1期读到一片极为出色的作文,标题为《我有一双隐形的翅膀》,是去年中国高考的“零分作文”。作者来自北京,使这篇作文的影响力更高。

这篇作文基本上在讲述北京学生和外地学生的差异。他说,北京学生都有“一双隐形的翅膀”,享有的福利比中国其他地方来得幸运。但他并不感到骄傲,反而时时感到自卑。我相信他把现实说得太透底了,导致这片原本能够得满分七十分的作文完全得不到一分。再加上他最后两句:“有一本书说过,所有动物一律平等,但有些动物比其他物更加平等。这“有些动物”,就是有一双隐形的翅膀的人?”更是把中国形容成和前苏联全无二样。

我想,如果它能写成隐喻、讽刺性的文章,可能还可以升级为满分作文。

人类最大的缺点是不愿承认自己的错误或缺点。惭愧!人类本可以变成更加成功的高级生物。

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Exhausted.

This Friday is Drama Night, and today’s rehearsal ended at eight thirty. I could not even manage to get my clothes back from the laundry service. Sacrificed like 15 hours just to get CIP hours of only 1.5 isn’t much of a fun, so I just hope there will not be major changes after this, not with the lightings changed at least. However, I knew very well there things can just change whenever they want to torture us even at the last minute, and I meant it literally. Maybe not for this complicated event, but who knows what might happen.

Anyway, Mr Kevin Cheng resigned as a teacher today because he decided to go study law in NUS (I could not imagine a person his age was still willing to “study lo”, although he argued that he is in his early twenties). This is saddening as another great teacher decided to leave Xinmin. Mr. Cheng's humor and sarcasm never fail to make us laugh. Suddenly, I felt that Xinmin is losing more and more experienced teachers, and especially for this year, there was already too many new teachers joining Xinmin. I refused to imagine the standard of Xinmin in near future. Hopefully new teachers have better teaching style that, you know, was easier for us to learn.

And there's CCA tomorrow. Ohmggoddammit terrible. :x

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Just woke up...

Just woke up...

N2D2 was quite fun and tiring, but in the Hall after the run it was a total different thing.

Movie Screening. Emcees sucks, no laptop provided, bla bla bla. Even till the last minute I couldn't agree more that this event was seriously epic fail organised by them. LG touchscreen with three buttons huh? I thought the school is not responsible for any lost item? Waste time, drag time. If on Monday they tell the whole school it was a success, Idk how thick their skin really was.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

N2D2 tmr...

N2D2 tmr. Got duty.

Intending to bring laptop and spam =D. Hall Control is like "麻雀虽小,五脏俱全", power supply, aircon etc everything have alrdy. The probable negative part is that the wireless connection is weak, if not totally not existing. Sadded. But I dun care la. I'm just gonna treat it as another Movie Marathon type of event - I mean it really is a so-called photocopied event to me.

Anyway whatever, there's no crash course lesson on the following day, and i'm guessing there'll be no remedial. So, good!

I kinda screw my SS test today :o

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Today I broke a personal record - I ran back from school to hostel to and fro within 20 minutes. I did this just to change to my Media shirt which I had forgotten to bring. And I just realised how stupid I am.

Anw, today CCA session was not too bad, but I wasn't too satisfied with the situation where other people just took away my time slots last minute and severely affected my plan. And despite wasting so much time, there was someone complaining and arguing about the session, and even said I'm crazy in front of the juniors. She was so bloody daring. I'll make sure the bingo book has her name on it the next time she dare complain about anything.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Screwing up a small event to not screwing up a big event.

Crap... Sorta screw up the XGT Finals today.

Dun wanna talk about it anymore. Looking forward to Drama Night, which will be held next Friday. I am not going to screw up that one - although that was a harder event to do. I am going to succeed. I am going to let people feel every single cent that will be spent on this show was worth it. I will make no mistake.

I better not, or I fail, and that means I wasted three years in the club learning nothing more than what I had learned since I joined in.

I hope that 11 days later I would be posting a good news.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Opening this page for what seems like hours, but nothing comes into mind despite having the urge to post.

Being busy. XGT rehearsal, Drama Night Rehearsals, and more things to revise in preparation for EOY. A busy term. Not sure whether there will be more to come. Too many commitments isn't a good thing after all huh? No turning back now, gotta grab them tighter and move on.

Getting more used to the moving lights in our school hall. I'm striving to gain the most out of it before stepping down nine months later. And the freaking manual insisted to be done by Mr Kang and was not finished yet, how am I going to complete it?

I may not be the best, but I am trying my best.

Friday, July 16, 2010

I don't understand. Why do people abused power and not being punished, whereas people who merely express their anger towards somebody who jb and gl them will be warned. I don't wish to live in this kind of situation anymore, so I'm going to change.

With the effects starting from this badge, we cannot issue punishment towards them. Apparently those outsiders proposed it. My best guess would be that they want us to train a bunch of hyperactive monkeys and uncooperative humans like dolphins who would always listen to instructions. I am not going to adhere to those stupid rules, I am going to stick to the tradition. Of course, taking into consideration that you all are peers, we give face a bit. Now, punishment will be done indirectly.

You better give me an answer. I hate not being myself. Yes, I am not fierce - that's probably what you think. Wait till you see. I could turn the entire thing upside down if I want to. Trust me.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

沉思、久思、日夜思。

沉思、久思、日夜思。究竟该如何改变一个少年对事物的观念——难听点就是态度?事实上,说“一个”是出于无意夸大其词之故,况且如有答案,数量已不成问题。

事实上,答案很简单,且一直都在脑上。那答案便是自己的观念。当然,这个世界是由困难建立的,此时难就难在如何运用正确的自此来转变对方的观念。

依旧沉思、久思、日夜思。

CMI - can or cannot I make it? Hmm...

Dammit, keep losing things. Even when I am grabbing it so tightly and that I realised it was gone probably just after a few seconds.

Was fate trying to play tricks with me?

Anw, gonna be really busy for some weeks mainly cuz of Drama Night, and Im on duty. Not confident with my lighting skills - I hate screwing events up. And there's gonna be a rehearsal on Thursday. Friday there is an XGT rehearsal in preparation for next Monday. I guess Im gonna use those few opportunities to brush up my skills. I want myself to be as professional as those people doing lighting for the National Day Parade (whoever those people are), they're really awesome, and my performance - as in how well I will be doing my lighting - will tell me whether I pass my own test. Nobody who will be going to Drama Night is going to see me screwing up.

Hope I could make it. Although "God doesn't require me to succeed; he only requires that I try", but "saya yakin saya boleh!" (bukan 'boleh kalah' :x)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Choice of paths...

Pondering long enough...

"We all have two choices: to accept who or what we are in life OR to strive for what we can become and where that can take us." A person called Mark Stevens said it, and it got me thinking when I read this sentence today.

So, I was wondering which path to choose...

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

=D

Heard they were quite good today. Shall keep it up.

Today Mrs Peh, the Physics teacher came to our class and talked something about "02 always have most participate in SJPO, but now our class have 0 participation" etc. So some PRCs went up to sign up. Zu Yao and I decided that we must have "Wakil Malaysia", so we also signed up. Lol.

And today we were like crazy about the 7 times 13 = 28. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHZzObQUgE8 So anyway, due to sheer lameness and boringness, we decided to find other examples of such "rare cases". In the end, we found 21 other examples for all two-digit number dividing one-digit numbers. But for three-digit numbers divide 2-digit numbers we sort of found out a problem, so we didn't continue - or did we say we save it for tomorrow? XD

CCA was fine, just that I was forced to go to B@S when the juniors went for training. Dammit, always have more than one thing crash together.

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Random short post.

Racing with time. Awaiting the unimaginable tomorrow.

Monday, July 05, 2010

I have a dream...

I am rather desperate but still clinching a slight glimpse of hope to post this this moment in what will go down for another nine months, as the most difficult and tedious task I have ever done in probably my whole life.

Five score days ago, a teacher, in which we still fear of a little, announced the next generation. This shocking moment came as a great burden to at least me who had not had the experience. It came as a sudden thundershot to begin the darkness. Despite so, I still feel I could make it.

But, one hundred days later, nothing is done. One hundred days later, not a slightest change is made. One hundred days later, slackers and those that they have influenced remain passionless and unenthusiastic. One hundred days later, the entire department's standard has dropped from 50% to 5%. And so I've being irritated by the crucial and disheartening fact far enough to vomit out what was inside.

This is like an incomplete relay, and I knew I could not just stop like that. When I received the task, I did not know nightmare was approaching. After all these sessions, one after another failed sessions, something appropriate must be done.

Apparently, the heads refuse to believe the key problem is their attitude and not ours. They refuse the get themselves into our exact spot. Thus, we two poor soul are still suffering under the insufferable task that was beyond our hands.

I have also posted this in hope to express the actual fact, those that they could not understand. I dare say we two are having the worst task of the entire club, which they would not agree, but that's not the point, and I don't mind. They need to understand that they will not understand even half of the entire situation just by using humans' eyes and false or inaccurate judgement. They need to understand that to change a person's attitude, in the end, no one could change them except for themselves, considering the fact that their brains are almost fully grown.

It would be difficult to change them, but I had enough rice in this planet to know that brute force is definitely a fail plan. Discipline does not need to be that stupid. This is not the department's end, but a beginning. But every single member of the department have to regain their enthusiasm and passion and teamwork in order for things to work out smoothly like before. An event was not there for us to fail, but rather for us to overcome it.

But there is something more. To achieve this is not an easy thing. It must have the cooperation of every single member. Most of us are probably "forced" to join the department, even I myself. But, the thing is, this is not a slacker club. It was difficult to force ourselves into something that we do not wish to do, but if we could think of it as serving the school, that would definitely make life easier.

We shall not allow the wrong perception engulfed us into meaningless life and nothing of the nowhere. There was no turning back, unless you wish to be the small group that contributes nothing to the society tomorrow, instead being as a trash to make the government's life difficult.

I have a dream that one day the department will realise the true meaning of being in this department.

I have a dream that one day even those few you-know-who-you-are would change their attitude and perspective on things in life, and of course in this department.

I have a dream that one day the department would be like before.

With this faith, we will be able to have a pure success big event. With this faith, every crew will be able to communicate and cooperate with each other so well that everyone knows the event from head to tail. With this faith, fate would be too frightened to play a fool with us and try to screw up an event thoroughly.

Will this happen again like before?

Friday, July 02, 2010

Exhausted...

Quite tiring today.

Today got Kaleidoscope, and thus half of my classmates was gone. Lessons went pretty well, although I felt that Chemistry is boring ever since semester 2 starts, so I sort of never pay too much attention.

After school, went back hostel. Played basketball (Haven't played for ages). Went to Joshua's house to relax. Joshua sway sway never bring his house key. So we chiong back hostel, and back again after he got his key. And omg, I cant believe I am eating liquid egg white and egg yolk. It was supposed to be boiled but somehow it was not. At 1650 Jonathan and I walked to school for media duty.

SJAB camp requires some of our equipment, so 3 of us are supposed to bring those equipment to the Hall. I ran for dk how many times up and dwn, partly due to me keep on forgetting of some equipment that I haven't take. I left my perspiration in Hall Control - I literally saw my sweat dripped down (lol, i know this is random XD). Then set up, test sound, eat, and went back here. [Man, their food is a lot btr than media camp's, although their fruit punch is too sweet.] Hope no equipment spoiled when we got them back from SJAB on Tuesday.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Untangling the wire...

Today's CCA session was as usual - horrible. Horrible, not because of any other reason, but for the sec 3s. Omg, disgraceful sia... Took more than half an hour to set up a simple canteen system.

I seriously dk what to do alrdy man. Somemore sec 1s are "not confident" in setting up (quoted from Jit Hui, who said that tt's what the sec 1s told her)... ??? zzz

Even for a teacher, he/she could not possibly taught so well tt all students aced their subject. Then why were all people saying tt we failed to train them properly whenever something went wrong? Im not even a teacher? I only live for 15 years, not 45.

Anw, if Isaac sees me and ask me "how's life?" again, I can only say it's terrible, like a super-tangled wire. Mr Tang said this wire can be untangled, just that it needs time. Im not sure whether he realised, but if I could tangle it I would've alrdy done so.

Couldnt care too much. Now only can chiong for study. Im gonna make sure I dun flunk my EOY like MYE.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

My personal opinion.

Ytd sleep at 1am (technically it should be today, bt well... whatever). Then today can't wake up by myself. I was surprised tt I could still stay awake in school (I did drink coffee, bt sometimes they fail me). And so sway I kena duty for today's XGT, and I reckon it's the scariest duty although I ask Zheng Da to tell Jit Hui it was fine, cuz Jonathan said so. The sound was blasted so loud tt after tt I coudn't tell whether the mic is switched on or off from the speaker.

So, another long day. Why did the school let us have 7 lessons on a single day? Like we would learn properly..

Have oral exam soon. July 12th. Dun feel like preparing anything... Impromptu la... People r nt gonna rmb all those things in an exam mood... =.=

Seriously, ur attitude dint've to be liddat, bt wad's done is done. Very well, u reminded me of a story i heard when I was young. A wolf could not reach the grapes on the tree, bt when he saw the squirrel who could get the grapes, he told himself that the grapes are sour. U r the bloody wolf!! Im alrdy quite besong u when u called me as if I shouldn't've been born or some sort, tt I shouldn't be wad I am, tt u r btr than me (note tt I dun nid a sarcasm sign to tell tt u r being sarcastic), and u dare go on to insult him. R u tt worthy?

Anw, still pretend ntg happen huh? Smart of u? Juz wanna avoid the awkward only, but I guess u still assume it'll be juz like some "happily ever after" kinda ending rite? Wait for it. The world continues to spin, bt my life would be smoother. Enjoy it while u still could.

p/s: "It was all a misunderstanding..." Wow, misunderstanding? Wad a big word for u man! I've seen probably enuff of ur type, bt nt this professional in making a girl cry...

Monday, June 28, 2010

1st Day of Sem 2... It sucks -.-

You know what? Life just sucks when there are so many things that you have to do even if you hate it! Man, or even something that you thought would be interesting, but it turns out to be boring (but you can't quit D:)

1st day of semester 2 is bad... So many pieces of incomplete homework... So many new things to learn... Especially BIO!!!!!!!!! Leefy was speaking so fast that half the times I didn't manage to finish copying those things on the slide. He said it was all in the textbook... Funny huh? Didn't find anything from the textbook that was the same as any content from his slides... zzz....

Whatever.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Ace Learning sucks...

Getting bored with Ace-Learning's quizzes... The questions are irrelevant, linkless and low-quality man (not to mention i can cheat all the way through =P). In short, they sucks! And worse, it is loading so slowly... Dammit, not sure whether it is the hostel's internet's fault though.

School is starting in 4 days time. Loads of incomplete homework suddenly haunts me to get them done... Scary... Of course I won't be so stupid and stuck myself all day into it, despite all these times that have gone wasted due to my carelessness of not keeping my wallet well enough :x In any case, I dun wanna stress myself too much anymore.
Going to NUS for SMO second round on Friday. After going through the past year questions, I decided not to put too much hope into it. Just aiming for like 10/50 or so just to secure a Gold Award.

Praying very hard that I won't screw it up.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Boring...

Lol... Portugal pwned North Korea 7-0.

Life's been quite boring, ntg fun to do (I mean except for Ac10 of course). Everyday stuck at hostel watching videos, chat with the few ppl left in hostel, eat, sleep, etc, and u know, it's like a fixed routine.

Maybe that's what being a normal person is about, you gotta live an F9 story plot - if you know what I mean.

It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today, and the reality of tomorrow.
Robert H. Goddard, US physicist and pioneer rocket engineer.

Got this quote from the MRT station's television. I thought it was meaningful so I sort of copy it down. (Don't say I've gone mad due to sheer boringness.)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Woo... Watching "Mentalist"! =D

Thursday, June 17, 2010

AC10

Shiok and fun for the past 4 days.

Went to the Adventure Camp at Jalan Bahtera last few days. As u know (okay, u might not know), I sort of being "forced" (oops, a strong word) to go. At first I am very bored, seriously. The thing is, im a sec 3, and people all around r mostly sec 2s (facilitators not included), so I feel like quite hard to mix with them, and it is weird! Oh and I forgot to mention something that made it worse, most of the sec 3s there are facilitators, and ... U know, juz weird.

So I was in group 8, being facilitated by Justin Yeo and Simone - okay, still not so bad, at least I know them. For the rest of the group members, I only know Yang En. After a few ice-breaking etc, we went to the camp site by bus. Wow, very long journey, took us 45 mins to reach there.

Every group is appointed one instructor, and ours was the super lame type one - I mean all the instructors are quite funny, I think, but this one is the damn lame type one. Anw we dint see him much in the first day, except for the flag deco. Our team is called Angel cuz we were lazy to draw anything on the flag, so Joshua (oh this is the instructor, forgot to mention) ask us to leave it blank to show the purity of angel, something along that line. After lunch, we learn how to belay and stuff. Nt much for the 1st day, maybe except for campfire prep.

Second day was fun! We go do all sorts of high and low element stuff. Bt for now I only can rmb abseiling, Rebirth, and kayaking. Abseiling was fun, although when Im a bit scared when I "walked" down. Then rebirth... I think this is the silliest thing I have done man - not in the negative sense of course, but Joshua actually asked us to roll on the mud if we wanna play. Justin was the so-called most sway wan cuz he was somehow forced to demo how to roll on the mud, and he had no choice bt to play afterwards. This game is actually to carry a person to the other side of a wheel through the wheel hole, with the support of teammates. Kayaking was funnn!! Sadly we only get to kayak for tt one or two hrs i think.

Third day is bad! Awful. When we proceed to the first station of the day after breakfast, birds flying off, ants crawling fast, wind blowing tight, dark clouds gathering, and it rained l8r, until 2 pm!! So we miss a lot of things. In the afternoon, we only managed to play challenged pole and ____ - Idk wad it's called, bt for this only one pair get to play. So ntg much to say. Campfire was fun, except maybe when our grp is performing, which sort of screwed a little cuz it dint follow as planned.

In any case, no matter which part of the camp is the most memorable one - whether it is the 1st time we met Joshua and he started teaching us "江王爷" where we've to clap with our hands on our head when he shouted the three words, or the times when we first started creating our grp cheer which contains five "hallelujah", or when we learn "Peace by the river" and Derrick hardly managed to follow the steps, or the time when Joshua wasted our 30 mins of campfire prep time and Justin and Simone dk wad to do abt it, or when we cheated when we played tangle baby that screw things up even after redoing, or when we literally PISSED Samantha off cuz we cheer when she said the camp would be ending in 23 hrs, or when we learn how to dance "洗刷刷" and wanted to dance it over and over again, or the performance where our plan dint work bt still somehow improvise thru, or Joshua who crap a lot and disturb our grp discussion bt still being very serious during the debrief and saying we've done a gd job in the campfire performance despite our awfulness - it doesnt matter, for I enjoyed the camp, experienced many new things, and learned a lot!

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Oh my god... SMO open was very very bad... I manage to do only 8, of which only around 4 questions are correct. :x

Dammit, another 10 bucks to SMS charity..

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

AWWmygod... I think i totally flunk the paper.

Took SMO (Senior Section) today. I think I can only do 12 questions, so I probably won't get into the 2nd round... :x Fine nvm, now focusing on open section. Juz hope that I can at least get something not so disappointing - you know, after all those time spent on the math...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Last Day of Term 2.

Got my report book back today. My result is at its worse stage in Xinmin: lowest percentage, highest L1R5, and most number of underlined marks - you know what that means. The only thing is that my class and level position is still considered "差强人意", not too bad in general, though still a tremendous drop.

Luckily my mum did not complain too much about my results - I still couldn't forget my first semester in Xinmin, the unbelievably un-awesome result.

Anyway, what's over is over, gotta focus on the next semester. Everything is gonna be even more difficult. Studies, CCA, and Maths Project. Now, I am just concentrating on SMO, which is just in less than 5 days time. Hopefully I can clinch something that I wish to achieve, at least for Senior Section. I believe I can make it! =D

Wow, how time flies. I've alrdy been in Singapore for 2.5 yrs.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Struggle through life...

Sometimes, I seriously have no idea why im studying something that I have zero understanding about and have zero interest in knowing.

Life just sucks huh? You don't really have much of a choice. There are full of restrictions, blocking our way to our dreams. Human race probably could evolve in a much faster rate if there were more freedom.

I recalled what Mr Kevin Cheng said (or nagged) in class today, "You don't have to succeed in life, you can fail.". Of course he was being sarcastic when he said this, he merely wanted us to be those "obedient kid" that he imagined, or something like that (im not too sure). In any case, despite his scornful and penetrating words at times, I don't really agree with what he said, although he had a point there. He can't just criticize those people who might not put in enough effort, because the fact is: Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Albert Einstein etc did not complete their education, they make themselves an alternative route: work towards their dreams.

Anyway, whatever, why am i talking crap over here. Hmm... Waste of space? XD

Holy Crap.

... and we still have to struggle no matter what.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Screw it.

Fail two subjects today, Physics and Chemistry. Other subjects are also very disappointing, even for E and A maths.

MGBM le :X

Then, another thing. Made me do a little bit of thinking. What shld i do? Crap. Tried very best, bt still failed eventually. Hmm, I got a bit dejavu-ed, and realise it was exactly like my academics, been studied for so bloody hard, bt got this kind of result.

Freakedout. Biasness, unfairness, uncooperative, attitude problem. Everything will be okay? Hah, juz another sentence to encourage ownself that we can pretend ntg's ever happen.

..

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Exam's over.

Freak.. Still've got so many things to do. And post-exam activities dun seem very fun. Like vry usual kind of activity. Right brain's sleeping huh? 0.0

I think im gonna screwed this yr's maths olympiad. For the first times in years, they all looked alien to me. God, my brain cells are dying. I dun even know where to start.. Haiz..

Forget it.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

盼望曙光尽快来。。。

灰色的雾笼罩着眼帘外的一切,视线顿然变得模糊,导致身子差点稳不住。感觉像只迷了路的小绵羊,东张西望四处扫描,却不见牧童的踪影。脑袋闪过“绝望”二字,虽不愿接受,却也无可奈何。

将近半载,一件又一件事迹证实了失败的存在。如何让它告辞?

“乐观”在这种关头已形成了面具,内心的创伤并非一日建成。世界上还有那一贴药能够拯救它,挽救这个悲剧?冰冻三尺,非一日之寒。但,世界还有温暖人心的曙光吗?希望何在?

渐渐地,我就该彻底让“绝望”来代替我的灵魂。

Saturday, May 01, 2010

“寂寞”及“孤独”

刚刚读了kai lin的部落格,发现她其中一则里有几行字异常有趣,使我感触良多,也让我对“寂寞”及“孤独”这两个词有着更深一层的领悟。

当我们看到一个人独来独往,总以为那是寂寞。
实际上,这只是外表,内心活动,别人无法窥探。
你们会以为他们是为寂寞所苦,也许正适得其反,
说不定他正恣意地享受多彩的内心生活,
不愿别人打扰,有意维护属于自己的个人空间。
同样的,寂寞的人未见得孤独单行,他们越是在众人之中,
越感到缺少知音,不被人了解,与他人格格不入

“孤独”不一定是“寂寞”。“孤独”是只身一人,而更准确来说,引用她的说法,便是“独自一人,所以从外表上看起来很寂寞”,但从当事人的角度来看却不一定很可怜。相反的,他可能会觉得非常自由,无拘无束,甚至有可能正在享受生活,乐在其中。

“寂寞”则是内心非常空虚,没有方向、目标、动力。它是悲惨的,让人产生绝望的情绪。即使在茫茫人群中,也会感到非常痛苦、浑身不自在,并且无人陪伴。

Saturday, April 24, 2010

=.= Left 10 days to MYE...

Sunday, April 18, 2010

In Bishan Library now.

Woohoo, internet vry fast. Much btr than parry hall one XD

Happy Birthday XING JIE aka ZINC =P

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Clogged brain... Lazy to think

Confused...

The reason this world is so complicated is probably because there is no strict boundaries between right and wrong, and people always think that they are right without further thinking it from another perspective.

Hmm... Might fail... In fact, it has a fairly high chance to fail... Change does not occur just like that, but okay, never try never know. Jiayou barhs!

Friday, April 16, 2010

An enlightenment from a FRIEND!

Just realise how wonderful life is, which I did not realise.

What's the big deal of being so top? Friends are more important, aren't they? It's better for people to like you despite being "ordinary" than being top but hated by people. Right?

Just this point I've already OWN-ed many of my peers.

Life is great. (I shall answer this to Issac whenever he ask me "how's life?" again lol XD)

:D

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

不公平的待遇才是刺激的人生。

水珠僵硬在眼珠之后,形成一个巨型的问号。此刻陷入迷惑的梦中,可恶的黑暗挡住了视线,无从寻找一丝灯光。

若要论“公平”二字的真正定义,现实生活中又几曾得以让人与人之间画上以此定义作为基础的等号?

世界上有许多费解的事、许多出乎预料的事,而人类往往都因此而责怪命运的安排。可能我此时也在这样的状况之中。

咳,欣然接受事实吧。

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Finally A Random Post After So Long...

Juz realise i havent been posting for a few months... Blog dead le, as many have complain (actually only a few la)
Nearly forgot the password, I only got it right after trying for a few times.. :0
Today is vry horrendous (yay! mr cheng must be vry happy if he see me using this word lol)...
Screwed my chem ytd, and i got 11.5/40.
First time in my life i think
I dun rmb myself having such a low mark... :x

I must chiong for mid yr le... Cannot continue slacking... If nt l8r i will have to say byebye to xinmin and go bac to msia o.o CHOY!!! Wun happen de!!! My friendzez xj zheng da they all will miss me de leii... XD

And i still have to find the 1,2,3 for the word "susceptible"

Dun wanna mention other things tt i failed...

Monday, January 11, 2010

The stupid teacher who likes to ask stupid question...

I definitely won't respect this person.

Today got diagnostic test. Kevin Cheng didn't come. Thus he subs. him.

"Meaningful" quotes in the 1 hr session...

1. "Minimum 500 words for a typically stupid student." Ass, I think I only write around that range lo...

2. "Anyone has anymore stupid questions?" Eh cher, u juz mentioned a stupid question... Sadly I didnt think he realised that..

3. "Do you have any stupid question to ask me?" Best answer of the month:"I have a stupid question for a stupid teacher to give me a stupid answer."Nice one Si Wei!

4. "One page is not enough". Eh cher, we write how long is our problem, u so kepo 4 wad? Is there a rule stating that teacher can insults student's intelligence when the teacher thinks they are stupid? He left his attitude in his mother's womb man!!

Mr Kuo lesson. Diao. He vry contradicting sia... First he said that the definition "a substance that cannot be broken down chemically." is useless cuz we cant know whether it can be broken down. So, his definition is "any substance that can be found in the periodic table", which I disagreed. I argued that if there is a new element, then according to his theory, that element is not an element? And he said some crap abt how the scientist are able to find out. This means that the first statement is true, isnt it? Sien... Anyway, didnt argue with him le... Scared he l8r no face, then kick or slap me.. He's alr intended to use the mechanical pencil to poke me... :x

Sunday, January 10, 2010

该顺从导演,还是我行我素?

迷惑。。。

难道说人类真的就是一部戏?

不!绝对不行!!倘若如此,世界岂不是充满了虚假?可惜,虽然听起来有点难以置信,还带着一种不肯相信事实的心态,这似乎就是真的。为什么会这样?

不晓得那个说“人生如戏”的人是哪位,也不知他的真正讯息,但,嗄,不会那么巧吧?今日心血来潮想到此事。。。恐怖!!

人家说:习惯就好。但是,这能免则免的方法有用吗?空气污染、海水污染等,政府就会吵。声音污染呢?文化污染、人性污染呢?做事,应为己,亦或为他人?

结论:我对人类实在_____。。。无话可说。科技不断进步,但头脑却在退步。他们不断upgrade左脑,却忽略了右脑,使他发霉。我知道我也是人类,但,咳。。我只能说,用一杯水来救火,需要奇迹。

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Flag Day sux man....

Sch ask us [my class] go Suntec City. Alr nt much ppl there, somemore got so many schools at the same time. I wonder wad the organiser was thinking, having so many ppl tgt doing the same thing...

End up walked frm City Hall to Farrer Park. Sounds insane huh? :Z Anw in actual I only got 3+ dollar in the plastic.. then 4got how force until 10 dollars [sch wanted 10 dollars minimum].

Sien.. tmr nid go sch AGAIN!!!! GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

Friday, January 08, 2010

Question of the day: How should we grab ppl's attention when presenting sth?...

zzz...

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Sh!t

Damn busy. Smpf, DSS, school student reporter [nt sure wad's tt]. And my CCA. Esp this yr, Xinmin 65 anniversary. Im alr having things crashing with each other. God knows if i can get this through, + coping with studies.. Shouldnt have taken so many subjects man...

真希望一天能有四十八小时。。。

My weekend pao tang liao... zzz...

sat: flag day
sun: ushering for idk-wad's-it presentation ceremony.

Sienzz..... Headache

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

english: mr kevin cheng. K la. Nt bad. Nt as boring as... u know. Quote: According to experts, it will do u no harm when u read more books. [when he talks about 50 facts]
chinese: mdm gwee. Diao
maths: miss Lilian Kuck. Quite good la. She likes the number that I quite hate... Bt nvm.
bio: Mr Leefy. Okay... Quite Scary... Nt in tt sense though.. This guy nearly can molest me... SH!t
physics: Mr Ng YC. Walao.. Zhaosia btr than me... Zeed. Hardly looks like he is a teacher.
Chem: Mr Lim BP. "Best Smiley Award"lol... Bt good
e. history: Karen goh.. Fine. Should be quite good la...

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

长辈不爽对方,关我啥事?不知前世干了什么好事,竟会遭殃以至如此。

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Monday, January 04, 2010

角度人生

世界每天都在转,人类每天都在变。头脑也在转,转到一个问题去:两条平行线会有交叉点吗?

哈,理论上是不会的。更精准来说,在欧几里得几何里是不存在的。那天,就让我看见了一个能够在两条平行线上找出共同点。看好,是看见,不是发现。方法:换个角度!


你也许会觉得很废,但,答案正确,且,概念可爱。

令我想起了今天纪律主任Mr Singh 让我们看的那张照片。那个摄影师可算是厉害,在那个角度看来,那人竟像是有个很长的手。

从不同的角度看事物,就会有不同的感想、启发。世界真有趣!

First Day of Sch..

First day of school.

Raining today, then tot flagraising in class, bt then it's in the hall. Nicholas Tan super cute... Go bac class, arrange seats, group activity, then

Then 2 hrs of talks. Damn sien... Whoa, Joshua and Yi Jie vry cute, mixer didnt switch on PC audio then still expecting the video to have sound. Sad case, Joshua kena scolded by Mr Singh.. zzz

Lol, juz realise tt someone in my class whom I nvr knew was frm my pri sch... It's a new scholar btw... meaning nt Zu Yao.